Just when you think things will finally settle down, something happens. Immediately after visiting my sister, I get offered a second job which definitely fits my family's lifestyle so much better. No sitting behind a desk from 8 to 5, rushing to pick up Carter, and getting home after 6. Then off to softball or art, praying that I will have enough stamina to get my 7:30 run in.
But, with every positive must come the negatives. Starting on May 11th, I was on virtual lockdown. Studying materials, conference calls, taking exams, frantically reading all my clinical material, all the while trying not to melt down by the end of the day. Did I mention Chris also has been gone most of the last month for training of his own!? So, mother in law (thank God she is here) and I plod along and do the best we can.
Then, this past Sunday I board a plane to New Jersey for a week of onsite training that I swear to God almost killed me. I am not a "rah-rah, go team!" kind of person. I do not enjoy being around people who ask to many questions, ask dumb questions, or basically think they are some kind of sales superstar in the world of cough and cold. Obviously, I am somewhat cynical, very sarcastic, and a kind of tell it like it is kind of person.
I knew more about my weeklong roommate in the first 10 minutes of meeting her than I ever cared to know at all. My new supervisor, or Rain Manager(same height, same hair, everything!), as I like to call him since he looks exactly like Dustin Hoffman, is one of those micro-manage every little detail kind of people who I already know will drive me crazy. Did I mention he has ruined my 33rd birthday which is next Wednesday by flying down to spend the day with me in the field???
Okay, but in all fairness, I took the job. I rolled the dice. I got to see NYC for the first time ever, even if it was for 4 whole hours. I did manage to get know one cool person on my team, whom I know will become my best bud when it comes to making fun of the ol' bossman. And the best part is.....Monday is a holiday! Some great friends are coming out to meet me for dinner Friday night, and I am hosting a shower with a very dear friend for a very dear friend on Saturday. Life is alright.
Saturday, May 23, 2009
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
Swine Flu Break 2009
I truly despise morons. Really, I do. Morons usually look and act like regular people until something like the "swine flu panic" sets in. In the town that I live in, our schools have been closed now since last Thursday, April 30th. One case, at the high school, and all schools plus the private schools in town completely shut down. We are still shut down. We will be shut down until next Friday, May 15th.
I don't think people are morons when they err on the side of caution, but even the government (a bunch of liberal morons) are telling people not to shut down the schools. Hello? Anyone out there with a brain??? Okay, so here is what I am doing with my 1st grader while she is home from school. No, I am not keeping her home under lock and key. We are getting out, running errands, and moving forward.
Monday: dry cleaners, post office, fedex, drug test, and took little one to daycare.
Tuesday: Dr. appt for little one which lasts all freakin' morning, pizza for me and alex, target, embroidery place, mall, pick carter up from daycare, and chick-fil-a for a lemonade.
Wednesday: starbucks with friends, workout with trainer, pick up license plates, alex having friend come over for rest of the day, pool, chuck-e-cheese and possible movie.
Thursday: beach
Friday: San Antonio
Next week: WHO KNOWS!! But what I do know is my daughter should be back in school and this ridiculous panic needs to be over. Besides, everyone knows getting the flu is the easiest and quickest way to lose 5 lbs. Sign me up.
PS: The pics are from the doctor's office. Where we waited for over 2 hours to see him, and he spent 5 minutes with us and ordered a bunch of tests we have already taken. Still no answers as to why Carter does not want to talk. I hope my lovely dr. have hideous traffic on his way home, so he knows what it feels like to sit and rot and not be able to do anything about someone else's inconsideration.
I don't think people are morons when they err on the side of caution, but even the government (a bunch of liberal morons) are telling people not to shut down the schools. Hello? Anyone out there with a brain??? Okay, so here is what I am doing with my 1st grader while she is home from school. No, I am not keeping her home under lock and key. We are getting out, running errands, and moving forward.
Monday: dry cleaners, post office, fedex, drug test, and took little one to daycare.
Tuesday: Dr. appt for little one which lasts all freakin' morning, pizza for me and alex, target, embroidery place, mall, pick carter up from daycare, and chick-fil-a for a lemonade.
Wednesday: starbucks with friends, workout with trainer, pick up license plates, alex having friend come over for rest of the day, pool, chuck-e-cheese and possible movie.
Thursday: beach
Friday: San Antonio
Next week: WHO KNOWS!! But what I do know is my daughter should be back in school and this ridiculous panic needs to be over. Besides, everyone knows getting the flu is the easiest and quickest way to lose 5 lbs. Sign me up.
PS: The pics are from the doctor's office. Where we waited for over 2 hours to see him, and he spent 5 minutes with us and ordered a bunch of tests we have already taken. Still no answers as to why Carter does not want to talk. I hope my lovely dr. have hideous traffic on his way home, so he knows what it feels like to sit and rot and not be able to do anything about someone else's inconsideration.
Monday, April 27, 2009
20 Random Thoughts on a Monday
Almost everyone I know did this on facebook, but I have wanted to amend mine for some time now, so here goes....
1. Just when things get hopelessly bad and I am about to give up, things get better. After no luck finding a job for 3 months, I was offered two this month.
2. My idea of a vacation is a quiet hotel, large pool, and no kids.
3. My husband should offer a class to all those dad's who refer to spending time with their children as "babysitting." Nothing irritates me more when I hear my friends make that comment.
4. I don't ask permission to do what I want. I am a grown woman, and I usually make decisions that are reasonably intelligent now.
5. I have ever only stayed at a job long enough to acheive my goals. When goals have been achieved, boredom sets in, and it is time to move on.
6. I recently realized what my career should be and how little I will get paid for it. But, it is an honest to goodness career and is a stable, long term career. Now, I need an open position!
7. I might be nice to your face, but if you are a backstabbing, social climbing, phony person, I know you are and I am just being polite.
8. I love Tom Petty. His music makes a bad day so much better. He was the best part of the Superbowl two years ago. The only part I watched.
9. I like watching The Smurfs and The Flintstones with my kids. It reminds me of being little and spending time with my grandma.
10. I am grateful to have such wonderful, supportive friends. Especially the ones who know how crazy I used to be, and still want to hang out with me now!
11. I hate following stupid rules. Things like...no shorts in high school, no sandals at work, no personal email access at work...
12. I like to run. I like to run more when I am running with Tracy or Kelly, but I can do it alone, as long as my IPOD is charged.
13. I like the fact that I can have a conversation with other women without centering it around my kids. My kids are a cherished part of my life, but not my life in its entirety.
14. I wish I had a better relationship with my mom. I've always wished we could run Saturday errands together, talk about life in general, or just be able to hang out.
15. When my son reaches a developmental milestone, I literally cry with joy.
16. I love the fact that my daughter is naturally athletic like me. I am waiting for her killer instinct and hatred of losing at games to awaken.
17. I will never be happy with the way I look. I try, I really try. I am my own worst critic.
18. I am a terrible saver. If I had saved 20% of my salary over the last 11 years, I would be in a much better position financially!
19. If I were on death row, my last meal would be chicken fried steak with cream gravy, french fries, and chocolate cake.
20. If I could add 4 extra hours to every day, I would spend 2 with my family, 1 catching up with my friends, and 1 by myself.
1. Just when things get hopelessly bad and I am about to give up, things get better. After no luck finding a job for 3 months, I was offered two this month.
2. My idea of a vacation is a quiet hotel, large pool, and no kids.
3. My husband should offer a class to all those dad's who refer to spending time with their children as "babysitting." Nothing irritates me more when I hear my friends make that comment.
4. I don't ask permission to do what I want. I am a grown woman, and I usually make decisions that are reasonably intelligent now.
5. I have ever only stayed at a job long enough to acheive my goals. When goals have been achieved, boredom sets in, and it is time to move on.
6. I recently realized what my career should be and how little I will get paid for it. But, it is an honest to goodness career and is a stable, long term career. Now, I need an open position!
7. I might be nice to your face, but if you are a backstabbing, social climbing, phony person, I know you are and I am just being polite.
8. I love Tom Petty. His music makes a bad day so much better. He was the best part of the Superbowl two years ago. The only part I watched.
9. I like watching The Smurfs and The Flintstones with my kids. It reminds me of being little and spending time with my grandma.
10. I am grateful to have such wonderful, supportive friends. Especially the ones who know how crazy I used to be, and still want to hang out with me now!
11. I hate following stupid rules. Things like...no shorts in high school, no sandals at work, no personal email access at work...
12. I like to run. I like to run more when I am running with Tracy or Kelly, but I can do it alone, as long as my IPOD is charged.
13. I like the fact that I can have a conversation with other women without centering it around my kids. My kids are a cherished part of my life, but not my life in its entirety.
14. I wish I had a better relationship with my mom. I've always wished we could run Saturday errands together, talk about life in general, or just be able to hang out.
15. When my son reaches a developmental milestone, I literally cry with joy.
16. I love the fact that my daughter is naturally athletic like me. I am waiting for her killer instinct and hatred of losing at games to awaken.
17. I will never be happy with the way I look. I try, I really try. I am my own worst critic.
18. I am a terrible saver. If I had saved 20% of my salary over the last 11 years, I would be in a much better position financially!
19. If I were on death row, my last meal would be chicken fried steak with cream gravy, french fries, and chocolate cake.
20. If I could add 4 extra hours to every day, I would spend 2 with my family, 1 catching up with my friends, and 1 by myself.
Saturday, April 18, 2009
Mommy vs. Mommy
Everyone needs their mother. When we are little girls, we look up to our mom's and think that our mom is the most beautiful person in the whole world. We become teenagers, and secretly deep down we still feel the same way, but we tell them too often that we hate them or that they are stupid or out of touch. The last one is usually true... Then we become young women trying to make it in the world, and we use our mom as an example of the type of worker and wife we should be as we pave our own way. Then, we become mother's to our own daughters and things start to get tricky.
My mom is a busy body, but she means in it a good way. She likes to extole her opinions about her grandchildren's discipline (usually there should be none), marital fights that are best left alone, and generally, still feels that since she is my mom she has the right to "mother me."
I chose to move back to my hometown in 2004. I actually lived with my parents for 5 months as Chris and I were waiting for our house to sell in Little Rock. Her roof, her rules. Fair enough, but March 2005 we moved to our own house, and a safe distance (less than 3 miles) away. My mom "grandkids-sit" multiple days per week which allows for a "harmless" comment on whatever she thinks of that day. Those harmless comments eat away at my very soul, just like they did when I was 9 years old desperate to please her.
My point is...it is so hard to be a mother. It is even more difficult to be a mother and a daughter. The hardest part is being a mother, daughter and maintain that delicate balance with your own mother as you try your best to do all the things you learned from her.
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